On a day in the summer of 1983My parents planned for me accidentallyThey asked each other for a favorFailing to be clear of it's impossibilityToo keep it togetherbefore you spill This everloving seed
On the day of my birth irrevocablyIn a slanted room was a suprise Absence of dark placidityThat would never last My mouth became my feetI never took a spanking serious As I turned the other cheek
In the summer of 1993 I took to the drugsScreaming for attention spanSo I was prescribed my apathyI took myself inward & in that worldI dreamed of a place aching to bea kin to me
On the 4th of July 2003A friend of me & my familyAsked if I still had that dreamI packed what i never had in van& sailed it to the seaUnfortunately I found The fastest way to destinyIs not the 10 WestTo Santa Monicaor stuck in the snowHeading up the US93
On Thanksgiving of 2003My brother laid a brick for destinyPricking at his toesLighting a fire at it's feetFighting a natural synthetic for dignityTemperance in a high temperatureAddictions can be oh so nasty So is the fear of opening up Ask yourself in all your honestyWhose secrets do you carry& why do you live in self-less deceit
What do you say to someoneWhen you don't like the way you speakWhen everything about you is bullshit & wreaks of defeatWhen nothing good has ever come your way& every application is returned incompleteWhen all you do Is mirrored in the sadness of a familyThat will never be
I'm sorry I'll stop bothering you nowJust give me an answer & then I'll leave.